[F.U.C.K. is an e-zine that I started on January 24, 1993 and ended on January 24, 2000. One concept is that articles should be timeless if possible, so they were not released with dates. As such, the date on this blog is not exact but I will try to use a date as close as possible.]
Foreword by OverDriver; Dam was drunk off his fuckin’ ass, so keep that in mind when you read this.
Don’t fuckin ask about this file. This is the free flow of raw emotions and thoughts, and I am near a computer so I guess I will write this down. Who knows, I may never release this file. For the record. I have had several margaritas, a few beers, and a shot of tequila, AND I am watching Pump Up The Volume. That happens to be one of the best fucking movies. Anyway, 50% of the F.U.C.K. members are here, and 75% of the VIRaXe members are here. (if you don’t know what that means, don’t worry about it).
Like the title said, random thoughts. After watching this movie for the umpteenth time you really have to question today’s society and how it affects teenagers. “Society is mutating so fast, that anyone over the age of 20 doesn’t know what is going on.” or something like that. How fuckin’ true is that? No matter what you do, 50% of society looks down on you. They say you are messed up, that you are a failure, or what-the-fuck-ever. I say you are closer to normal than you can ever think. They say you are a failure, but why? Just because you don’t conform to “normal” society expectations, you don’t fit in. Who gives a shit. Don’t fit in, be your own person. Unfortunately I am forced to fit in more than I care for, but when I sit down and think about it, I hate myself for it. Be yourself. ‘Nuff said.
Lessee. What next…ok. F.U.C.K. files. Recently, I have read a few posts by other BBSers, that say F.U.C.K. files are blatant rip-offs of cDc files. First, like I have said before, these are NOT meant to be rip-offs of cDc files. Since F.U.C.K. has been around, I have periodically made sure that the starter of cDc doesn’t have a problem with what I am doing. Each time he has said that these aren’t just cDc wannabes. He (cDc founder) has downloaded every file, and continues to do so. Recently in mail, he has said that he thinks these files aren’t copies of cDc, and that they are different and somewhat cool. Swamp Ratte’ is who I am talking about, and I know him and all, and each time he says he doesn’t have a problem with it. Either way, these are NOT meant to compete with cDc files, but just meant to get ideas floating around other people’s minds. The person who criticized these files say that they suck, and that they are cDc wannabe’s, and that I am on an ego trip. Hmmm. First, do they suck? Maybe, but I doubt it. I am an english major, therefore I have had writing classes, my thoughts aren’t screwed up too much, and that is all they are. Next, cDc wannabe’s. Don’t think so. There are countless other text files that are closer to cDc files than these. Also. Lets say these are meant to be like cDc files. What does that say? It says I like them, and that they are cool. So that makes it like this: 1) I am not copying them. 2) I am copying them and I like them.
Either way, it is cool. Text files are text files. Even if these are like the cDc files, all they are, are text files. They are meant to be read, nothing more. All they are, are my thoughts, on the screen, and other people’s thoughts, nothing else. If my thoughts coincide with thoughts of the cDc authors, then who cares? We are all mortal, have about the same brain compacity, and same thought patterns. If someone copied these files, I would take it as a compliment. cDc will be around for quite a while, and has nothing to fear from a new text file group. Plain and simple. So in conclusion, to the person who says these files suck, think about it.
Next, to any other new text file series out there. I don’t care who you are, or what you are writing. If you are vaguely copying another group, so what? All you are doing is showing that you like a particular group, and that you want your thoughts out among the general BBS population. Nothing wrong with that at all. If you are one who criticizes text files, and say they are boring, then get a clue. They are one of the best things that could happen to the BBS community and anyone else. I have recently found out that someone printed up a few of these files, and took them to school, and showed them to teachers and friend. I really never thought that would happen and when I think about it, I guess that is more than I could have hoped for. All I wanted out of these files is to get a few general thoughts and opinions out among other people that don’t think about things. And apparently I have. I know of someone else that has done the same with cDc files, and other text file series. What more could a text file writer ask for?
BBSing in general. Looks like the debate between “elite” and “newbie” is coming out again here in Lubbock, Texas. There has always been question as to if someone can be “elite” or better than the rest. Some people think that “elite” means that you think you are physically/mentally better than other people. Other people think that “elite” means you have more access around town than other people. Bah. Who gives a shit? I have recently been blamed by others for thinking myself “elite” even though I have not posted the word ‘elite’ in a public post for over three months. Who cares what you call it? Fact is this. Some people have more/better access to BBSs, and other things than other people. Whether you call it ‘elite’ or ‘better’ or whatever it doesn’t matter. It means the same thing, and it means nothing in general. BBSing is a hobby for me like a majority of people. Others take it far more seriously apparently. Some people think that I take it very seriously, and in some cases I do. I care about my board, and what goes on there. I care about the boards I am co-sysop on, and I care about cool boards I am on, that restrict access to. That doesn’t mean they are elite, that just means they have some standards on general access is all. I restrict access to my board because I am tired of bullshit local users that don’t think before they post, and because they don’t know about the “good ole’ days” of BBSing. I don’t have anything really illegal on my board or anything, just that I don’t care for the average BBSer.
So what I am getting at is this. I don’t give a fuck if you hate me, hate my board, hate the text files I started. You are as meaningless to me as most of the other ‘mensch’ I am forced to interact with. People suck, and the more I have to deal with them, the more I hate them. Some people, no names mentioned, call that an ego trip, but I say fuck that. These are the same people that have ego trips as big, if not bigger, than mine. Fuck ego. Who gives a shit if someone has an ego? It is their business. Not yours.
All in all, have an open mind about everything. Especially text files. Text files are opinions, and nothing more. If you can’t respect someone else’s opinions, then you oughta be shot in the fucking head. You are a menace to society, and don’t deserve to live. Plain and simple. Keep an open mind about EVERYTHING and this world will be a fucking decent place to live. Not quite this shithole it is now.
Bah. Another person who is sober, has told me that this file is coherent surprisingly. We just talked about this whole file for several minutes now. They tell me to say “Fuck you” to whoever says these files suck, but if it is your opinion, then it is yours, and I have no say in the matter.
Believe what you want. Read these files based on your OWN opinions, not those of someone else on an ago trip. heh.
PS: This is not written to any specific person. cough